hope

My search for hope some times is like a lunar endeavor, not warmer or brighter but darker and cold, i trudge and i slip as i try to reach for daylight but grasp only fistfuls of night, i wonder now if doubt is the way of hope, sometimes i put it aside but never leave it behind, i am tired to be afraid that i might slip away someday,walk away and fall down, there is this feeling of being a kind of a substandard, to struggle with things i do not understand yet, my pride wants to join in the smile and be back in style, so the search is on again, to find what i am doing wrong and save the love in my heart that i got left, but i do not know where to start, it never used to be so hard, so i now i follow a pair of angels in their crazy ways, mistery is back,exciting in silence and for once in innocence.... Hope is on its way.

My fears

Now one of the short imcomplete ones
things that scares me,things i may never know why? Maybe you will never figure why? I stare off in silence sometimes,or you will never see what is that start my fears
i am afraid sometimes that my honesty will become unkind,and that i will learn to justify the words that actions deny, that if it make the world happy i will say that i am fine, scares me that one day you will look in my eyes and found that i learn to lie,the more i try to explain, the more the questions remain, please take this fears away,wash them all way, so you will never see the things that scare me and never share my fears

Last time i talked to you, i was out in the space, milky way past the sun, trying to figure out gravity, i miss your curly hair, i know it will be back, not that straight look less sexy, just missing u the real u, lonely here, cold, it looks great on paper, some theory always do and somethings are better left alone, underneath the stars, i remember you shining, remember ur songs, its all so far, but i know u are there somewhere, out there for me...... Just out there someday out there just for me.

I wont sleep until I feel you again

my own body doesn't lissten to me anymore. I won't sleep until i feel you again
my wet eyes just don't let me dream anymore. Tierd to explain things. Again and again.and I have told befor that how imotional they are. My eyes don't lissten to me anymore.
My lips don't smile again. Until I see you. They don't care about all those people out there who are asking for a reaction of happiness. They don't lissten to me anymore. Until I see you again. My hands are just holding your heart very hard. My legs are runnig from one side to the other. Looking for you. Hope to find you in a parking lot where they're always late. Blaming themselves of been late thousund tins befor and Hope to catch the right time this time. And Not make you fall sleep of waiting too long.
My mind is all about you, your smile. Your worlds. Your reactions. My mind is not mind anymore. Taking me to the memories of hot and cold days with you.
My body is not mind anymore.
And I'm missing a piece on the middle of it. I'm just hearing it that beats so hard, and repeats your name. But it's missing.its Not here, but I'm sure it's safe. I'm not mine anymore,

but wherever I am, I know I'm safe ...

Sing me the song, let me fly

I know. One day I'll fly. I'll get the reward of death and Fly to the place that we can smile, laugh, and be alive. that One day i can keep your picture on my wallet forever, where i have no problem showing off with you, where ill be safe with you anywhere...
Far from this painful planet one day ill fly where I can hold your heart for me , and just watch it for hours and hours. and where I'll be sure you are mine, even if you are miles away, far away from me.

ill be holding my head up and fly as fastest as I can. To feel the love. The hot sun light on my skin. To feel my heart in your hands.
To feel my heart in your hands. I'll fly as fast as I can. I will leave this planet. I'll be drunk by Your love. Your words that comes from your mouth. I'll fly and go deep into our emotions and never come back.I'll be flying to a place where no one is watching us.then I'll ask you to sing me a song, the one that comes from your heart. Sing me the song. Let me hear it. Let me fly ....

your crayon fingers

I picture those days,when you held the rainbow in your hands, your fingers were like crayons, and you fixed the hole in the moon,i saw rain falling, you saw hope falling everywhere, i have flashes of joy, you got my smile in your hands, love you never afraid to dream too high, too far or too soon, you have the rainbow of my life, i spoke about my dreams, your crayon fingers pictured them for me, you fixed the hole in my heart, you got it written in your eyes. Love
i like to picture those days.

just on your mind

Shhh! Don't talk don't move don't look. Only think about me. I don't wanna listen. Don't wanna be heared. Don't wanna be cared. I only wanna think about you. Your smile. Your heart and your soul. Ill show u what I deserve. Let me keep it forever. I won't give it back. if anything let it to handle the sadness and do the rain. Shhhh! Just think a about me. Get the signals even if I'm far from you. Miles away from. Think about what we dreamed. And what you said. "That the dreams aren't to be told. They are ready for us to die for them." shhhh! Let your heart get my signals. Just think about me. Let me be there. Just on your mind

I will run the streets and go back to my memories even walk by my old house,i will touch the rain,with all i have, i will breath the air,i will scream your name so loud that my feet will never touch the ground,i will be like my grandfathers dream, i will learn to really walk because your life is full of hope,i will get to a place so gloriously wired with beautiful lights and wonderful sounds, i will fight the clouds and fire i will ask the world to stop, i will cry,smile and smile and cry, because i have you and you have me beneath the clouds, under the rain, i will cry your name again so loud. Are you curious? Here i am and i love you.

enough

Enough is enough,i know you were waiting for me to understand, and now is fighting to escape my body,i am ready to say it.even better if you decide to join me,one after another like little air becoming a stronger wind, and will hit the cement on the streets,opening everybodies windows and maybe somebody will notice that from the darkest night we are coming out to stop it..........with a word so strong that the whole universe will hear it, every place where violence is trying to grow i will stop it, i will stop all those things that have no forgiveness, the truth will be my weapon, the rumors will start and more people will join and our voice will grow and grow and it will break walls of intolerance sending a message of hope to the ones with weak voice, my voice will be stronger reaching cities, showing the way, enough is enough, your voice is strong with me will be even stronger,come with me i can see it coming like little whisper becoming a storm. I am ready now my truth will be never stop, and if you do not know it yet yours either........

sepihar

I live in a endless dream, above everybody regrets, above the the tears of unfinish goals, i live in an endless song of hope, that also cries for a new begining.
through all this crowds and chaos, i hear the voice of sepihar, like and echo in my soul.
when my fears and doubts shake my world, i become the prisoner and the guard of my dungeon of weakness, but through all my tormented moments of feeling powerless i hear the voice of sepihar, lifting me again and again.
how can i stop from dreaming?

You touched my dream once,when I was miles far from you,..

You touched my dream and made me open my eyes, and think about the light that comes out of the clouds, I woke up with your smell, but I had nothing left in my hands, nothing to prove no picture, not even any other subject

I even left my shadow with you in my dream, I didn't know you..... but I could breath your name and all I had was an empty memory of your voice in my head!

It was for me and only me in my mind, still after years, it's for me and only me in my heart, and now the bells are pulling me back to pursue my lost shadow,

I want to get back to you

i want to see you and feel your kiss every night.

i want to get you, you touched my dream, I need to see you.

darkness

You are standing there, and every little piece of your body reminds me of the time that I was in heaven. I've lived, breathed and flown in there. I was with you, so i was alive in there.
You are standing there, smiling, just when we were laughing together, dancing, just when we were swaying together, and huging just when my arms were a shelter for your pure emotions, and I'm standing here, holding this broken heart which gets heavier every minute and watching you, and still adoring you. I'm standin here, days, nights, the sun, moon, same sky, songbirds, wind, poeple passing us by and try to aware you of me, but you don't hear, but you don't see
You are there and I'm standing here, no distance between us but a long way in our heart, with love. Peace. And hope