There I was standing. When the first snow crystal set in my face,Right when you left, Tried to teach me to handle them by myself, There I was standing, when the last candle of hope was burning in my hands, but you couldn't look back, There I was standing. When I begged you to stay to hear my heart.says ilus,even your food steps are filling with the new snow on the ground.and still your warm shadow is pathing my sholder. There I was standing when the last tear felt down on the cold floor. And made me realize the power of peace that could be here tonight. Tried to understand, You were too tierd to stay, but could you feel my love in the air? There i was standing when I realized why you told me one day "get ready, cause the heart is the first thing to hurt."Le deseamos dulces sueños y enviar todo mi amor a tu aire... here I'm still standing.

Color the sky again

Last night I colored the sky with you. Blue. Green. Yellow. You said the world is too crazy. I tried to pause the time and have you even more. Feel you even closer to me. But then you were right, our love doesn't limit in time. So we closed the night and you sent me into an amazing dream with your love. Last night you made me step into the clouths and hold you in my arms. In my heavenly dreams. And I wish to never wake up.
But tonight I can't see any star shooting to the area that you are. I can feel your shining emotions.deep into In my heart. Tells me wait my love...
Here im talking to the rose that's in love with the sun, and can't wait till it rise up tomorrow morning, So can't I wait to get you back to me. Hope the little angels that I sent to protect you with love are still around. And remind you every second that
Here I am. Waiting to dream and color the night with you again.

for a little bit

I was standing with my writings there minding my own news,for everything that someone said, someone else has a totally different view, i experience the whole things by myself, seen it like it was unfold upon somebodys tv screen, its a crazy world, so pass the avocado and chips please.i am just here for a little bit

And as i go a little man sit up way high, way up above the masses, we are killing this planet screams, while he smokes, i think about how much that irony reflect all of us , i see my fate written in the sky, can we just stand and watch, too late for that i kind like it here,its a crazy world better do something...even if i am here just for a little bit

highway

Life is like a highway. I've been crashed so many times. As I experience more wild reaction, my heart gets harder and harder to break. Only the first time was painful. So hard to accept. How can all these fake stars be your enemies. But as I get all these noncolor energies, I get more suplies for another fight. Another challenge. Knowing that this time I'll not lose. I'll remind myself the reasons that keeps me going. Motivates me. They are all combined in one thing. The one that tells me it's a crazy world. That tells me not to give up. That tells me I can do it. Ita beautiful, That tells me he is standing there just for a little bit. I gatta run. Have no time to waste. Can not take it easy as they ask me to ,He is just there for a little bit. I saved a space in my heart. Now ready to go to dance floor. even in this crazy world. Even in this wild highway ...

They aren't enough

I’m trying to write, write again about you, the moments that we shared, they cant come to the paper. I’m trying to write, but I cant put everything together, trying to ignore the negatives and just remember the sunshine that could make us talk for hours and hours. I’m trying to remember the ordinary points that you put into beautiful words. Wait, I’m getting there, trying to remember the moments that I couldn’t wait to hug you, kiss you and smell your perfume, I remember you were covering me from the cold winter and begin my shadow in a hot summer day, I need you again, your hands, your eyes, your lips, I do remember them all, but I need to feel you again. here, right next to me,

I can remember you from the things that you gave me and i adore, but they aren’t enough, I need you, I need to feel you, let me be with you

The wins cries your name, would you dance with me tonight

pick a song

look at the sky

The starts are writing your name

me here still working with your alphabet.

Now the sun goes down as i get ready for another night

i do tears from i do not know where got me

and is true life goes on, and things as they start, they finish and no matter what, even when i win i fell like i lost.

nothing but you

Well is time for me to come back home, to you

I am alive, i am a mess

can not wait to get home to you

to get warm and protected

There we been changes beyond my dreams

And it fells like everybady wants me to fall

so keep your door open

nothing heals me like you do

let me feel safe again

let me be at your side and sleep

i have not sleep in ages and i fell sorry

so keep your hearts open

cause nothing heals me like you do

hope

My search for hope some times is like a lunar endeavor, not warmer or brighter but darker and cold, i trudge and i slip as i try to reach for daylight but grasp only fistfuls of night, i wonder now if doubt is the way of hope, sometimes i put it aside but never leave it behind, i am tired to be afraid that i might slip away someday,walk away and fall down, there is this feeling of being a kind of a substandard, to struggle with things i do not understand yet, my pride wants to join in the smile and be back in style, so the search is on again, to find what i am doing wrong and save the love in my heart that i got left, but i do not know where to start, it never used to be so hard, so i now i follow a pair of angels in their crazy ways, mistery is back,exciting in silence and for once in innocence.... Hope is on its way.

My fears

Now one of the short imcomplete ones
things that scares me,things i may never know why? Maybe you will never figure why? I stare off in silence sometimes,or you will never see what is that start my fears
i am afraid sometimes that my honesty will become unkind,and that i will learn to justify the words that actions deny, that if it make the world happy i will say that i am fine, scares me that one day you will look in my eyes and found that i learn to lie,the more i try to explain, the more the questions remain, please take this fears away,wash them all way, so you will never see the things that scare me and never share my fears

Last time i talked to you, i was out in the space, milky way past the sun, trying to figure out gravity, i miss your curly hair, i know it will be back, not that straight look less sexy, just missing u the real u, lonely here, cold, it looks great on paper, some theory always do and somethings are better left alone, underneath the stars, i remember you shining, remember ur songs, its all so far, but i know u are there somewhere, out there for me...... Just out there someday out there just for me.

I wont sleep until I feel you again

my own body doesn't lissten to me anymore. I won't sleep until i feel you again
my wet eyes just don't let me dream anymore. Tierd to explain things. Again and again.and I have told befor that how imotional they are. My eyes don't lissten to me anymore.
My lips don't smile again. Until I see you. They don't care about all those people out there who are asking for a reaction of happiness. They don't lissten to me anymore. Until I see you again. My hands are just holding your heart very hard. My legs are runnig from one side to the other. Looking for you. Hope to find you in a parking lot where they're always late. Blaming themselves of been late thousund tins befor and Hope to catch the right time this time. And Not make you fall sleep of waiting too long.
My mind is all about you, your smile. Your worlds. Your reactions. My mind is not mind anymore. Taking me to the memories of hot and cold days with you.
My body is not mind anymore.
And I'm missing a piece on the middle of it. I'm just hearing it that beats so hard, and repeats your name. But it's missing.its Not here, but I'm sure it's safe. I'm not mine anymore,

but wherever I am, I know I'm safe ...

Sing me the song, let me fly

I know. One day I'll fly. I'll get the reward of death and Fly to the place that we can smile, laugh, and be alive. that One day i can keep your picture on my wallet forever, where i have no problem showing off with you, where ill be safe with you anywhere...
Far from this painful planet one day ill fly where I can hold your heart for me , and just watch it for hours and hours. and where I'll be sure you are mine, even if you are miles away, far away from me.

ill be holding my head up and fly as fastest as I can. To feel the love. The hot sun light on my skin. To feel my heart in your hands.
To feel my heart in your hands. I'll fly as fast as I can. I will leave this planet. I'll be drunk by Your love. Your words that comes from your mouth. I'll fly and go deep into our emotions and never come back.I'll be flying to a place where no one is watching us.then I'll ask you to sing me a song, the one that comes from your heart. Sing me the song. Let me hear it. Let me fly ....

your crayon fingers

I picture those days,when you held the rainbow in your hands, your fingers were like crayons, and you fixed the hole in the moon,i saw rain falling, you saw hope falling everywhere, i have flashes of joy, you got my smile in your hands, love you never afraid to dream too high, too far or too soon, you have the rainbow of my life, i spoke about my dreams, your crayon fingers pictured them for me, you fixed the hole in my heart, you got it written in your eyes. Love
i like to picture those days.

just on your mind

Shhh! Don't talk don't move don't look. Only think about me. I don't wanna listen. Don't wanna be heared. Don't wanna be cared. I only wanna think about you. Your smile. Your heart and your soul. Ill show u what I deserve. Let me keep it forever. I won't give it back. if anything let it to handle the sadness and do the rain. Shhhh! Just think a about me. Get the signals even if I'm far from you. Miles away from. Think about what we dreamed. And what you said. "That the dreams aren't to be told. They are ready for us to die for them." shhhh! Let your heart get my signals. Just think about me. Let me be there. Just on your mind

I will run the streets and go back to my memories even walk by my old house,i will touch the rain,with all i have, i will breath the air,i will scream your name so loud that my feet will never touch the ground,i will be like my grandfathers dream, i will learn to really walk because your life is full of hope,i will get to a place so gloriously wired with beautiful lights and wonderful sounds, i will fight the clouds and fire i will ask the world to stop, i will cry,smile and smile and cry, because i have you and you have me beneath the clouds, under the rain, i will cry your name again so loud. Are you curious? Here i am and i love you.

enough

Enough is enough,i know you were waiting for me to understand, and now is fighting to escape my body,i am ready to say it.even better if you decide to join me,one after another like little air becoming a stronger wind, and will hit the cement on the streets,opening everybodies windows and maybe somebody will notice that from the darkest night we are coming out to stop it..........with a word so strong that the whole universe will hear it, every place where violence is trying to grow i will stop it, i will stop all those things that have no forgiveness, the truth will be my weapon, the rumors will start and more people will join and our voice will grow and grow and it will break walls of intolerance sending a message of hope to the ones with weak voice, my voice will be stronger reaching cities, showing the way, enough is enough, your voice is strong with me will be even stronger,come with me i can see it coming like little whisper becoming a storm. I am ready now my truth will be never stop, and if you do not know it yet yours either........

sepihar

I live in a endless dream, above everybody regrets, above the the tears of unfinish goals, i live in an endless song of hope, that also cries for a new begining.
through all this crowds and chaos, i hear the voice of sepihar, like and echo in my soul.
when my fears and doubts shake my world, i become the prisoner and the guard of my dungeon of weakness, but through all my tormented moments of feeling powerless i hear the voice of sepihar, lifting me again and again.
how can i stop from dreaming?

You touched my dream once,when I was miles far from you,..

You touched my dream and made me open my eyes, and think about the light that comes out of the clouds, I woke up with your smell, but I had nothing left in my hands, nothing to prove no picture, not even any other subject

I even left my shadow with you in my dream, I didn't know you..... but I could breath your name and all I had was an empty memory of your voice in my head!

It was for me and only me in my mind, still after years, it's for me and only me in my heart, and now the bells are pulling me back to pursue my lost shadow,

I want to get back to you

i want to see you and feel your kiss every night.

i want to get you, you touched my dream, I need to see you.

darkness

You are standing there, and every little piece of your body reminds me of the time that I was in heaven. I've lived, breathed and flown in there. I was with you, so i was alive in there.
You are standing there, smiling, just when we were laughing together, dancing, just when we were swaying together, and huging just when my arms were a shelter for your pure emotions, and I'm standing here, holding this broken heart which gets heavier every minute and watching you, and still adoring you. I'm standin here, days, nights, the sun, moon, same sky, songbirds, wind, poeple passing us by and try to aware you of me, but you don't hear, but you don't see
You are there and I'm standing here, no distance between us but a long way in our heart, with love. Peace. And hope

The Life's Book

Open the book, the one in front of you, the one that got your name on it, and the one which is your life’s book. Look at the chapter, the page that you are in now.

If you don’t like the rhythm of your story feel the pen in your hands and start writing you new amazing words in the next blank pages. Open your eyes to the world, let your heart talk to the nature and let your feet touch the sand in the hot summer day, cold icy winter.

Hear the melody that life plays you every morning to wake you up. Let the sun give you love and joy and notice the opportunities that you have everyday to conquer new challenges, show your incredible power to the world, by making somebody’s day, being somebody’s help or doing something good and simple.

Today can be your start, get the pen, open the book and feel the life in your life.

The Little Hope

I want to dream, dream of my dreams tonight,I want to dream to be in my favoriet place in the world, next to you tonight.I want to dream going to a smoth river, and get far from this land, go far with you and our little boat. In a beautiful nighte. While the river carrying us with patient, the sky is our open roof,and the cool wind whispering hope in our ears,touches my hair and keeps us going deep into my dreams.the full moon sat in to your eyes as you're lying down and I'm mezmorizing in your face, I want to dream of my dreams tonight,I want to keep you stay awake all night next to me and ask you to tell me stories about those beautiful moments in your life that you've never put into the words, talk to me with the sound that comes from your heart and touches mine.

I close my eyes, scared to fall sleep, scared to wake up, I'm hearing the nights melody, feeling your hands holding mine and your heartbeat that calls my name, I want to dream of the love that comes from a kindness sky to our little boat. I feel like holding the moment forever,and refuse asking the jealous sun to come up, shhh! Don't wake me up if it's dream and if im still dreaming of my dreams.

let me dream, dream of you and my dreams tonight.

A Monster Under My Bed

As a kid, when I was five or six years old, scary subjects were always something to interested me and something on sdiscover what I was. I loved watching horror movies although my parents were totally against it. When I started school ,something that always bothered me was not finding any monster or any other scary things in the darkness of my room like the ones that my classmen were talking about . In the dark, there were no movements in my closet, othe hangers in my room didnt even look like a man who was standing with an angry face, because my friends were talking about this monster that hides under everybody’s bed every night and comes out after their parents leave the room, I decided to find the monster in my room, if there was one…

First, I wanted to know all the details of the monsters appearance. I took a notebook to school and started to write and draw all the description that I heard from my friends. I started with the color, green or black or gray skin. Acording to what they said,there were suppost to be three eyes, and four arms and hands. He had very strong voice and a big nose that can find you if you are hiding somewhere else but under your blanket in your bed. I drew him with excitement and aa little exagguation, I tried to put in some tails, too, in case the students were missing some details, a monster who eats all my toys and chases me if I’m still awake in the night. I so looked forward to seeing him, and I couldn’t wait to see himis grabbing my dolls. It sounded cool to me to see all those things happening in my bedroom.

The first night after my little research about the monster, the family dinner table seemed to take so long and all my mind was thinking about the monster. I didn’t want to say anything to my parents, because I was sure that they would ask me to sleep in their room, and they would think I was making up this story because I was scared. Finally, I left the table ,said my goodnights to my parents ,ran into my bedroom and closed the door .I cleaned my bedroom ,organized my stuff animals, turn the lights off, After waiting a while, I didn’t see or hear anything, I checked under my bed and in my closet.still waited but there was nothing coming up. Then I thought the monstrer might be hungry, so I put some cookies on the floor, I sat in my bed and held my pillow, but the room was still dark and quite.

When i got bored of waiting, I started to pick out a name for my new monster; green Shorty, monkey eater, long hands cutie.Then, I’ve heard something moving in the corner of my bedroom, I suddenly looked over there. My heart was beating very fast, I was clutching my pillow, and my eyes got big and bigger. Then it came out, it looked just like what I’d drawn in the class, It looked at me for a second, picked up the cookies and started to come closer to me. I didn’t know what my reaction should be, I smiled, then realized he really liked my cookies, so I gave him more and asked him to come closer to me slowly and sit on my bed, next to me. He could talk to me,He asked me to go with him to visit another planet for a while, he grabed my hand and we flew away.

”Sahar, Sahar, breakfast is ready, Wake up Sweetie, you are going to be late for school”, Yeah, That was my mom's voice. I opened my eyes, The morning was there. I was laying on my bed and had my teddy bear in my hands, “So what happened to my monster? When did we get back? Why are the cookies still on the floor? When did the monster leave me?” I asked myself. I couldn’t even remember my last conversation with him. I decided to wait for him again at night,I waited week, two weeks a year, but the monster never came out again, and that special night never happened again. Still after years, I can’t prove any of those memories to my friends or to my mom, I couldnt tell anyone about his monster land, full of lollie pops and chocolates. They thought that I was dreaming, but Only I knew they weren’t dreams , not only do monsters not scare us on, but they can be our best friends in the dark.

heavenly house

.... and Im happy to have a house in this heaven, my bedroom is full of peace , I can hide in it wheneve I feel like the world is falling in my head,

Ive got a sister who holds my hand all the times, Ive been,I am and I will be with her forever,with proud, happiness and kindnesses...

my angel, the one that God sent me to live with from the begining of my birth, I can see her and talk to her, I call her mom, she has done more than what I can talk about for me, to make me me, this sahar and to build my amazing goals and send a positive energy to pursue my dreams,

my brother and sister, the once who are tyring to teach my the concept of living, I hope I use their expriences in my life.

and you, who gives me the most importante thing in the world,"love" and the purpose of been alive and positive, energic, who raises my heart and opens my eyes,

and all the friends that I have in this heaven, who complain sometimes for nothing in their lifes,and remind me to think about the things that we got and never notice that most people dream to have a part of it for a short time, to have a part of our life with the loves around it, but this life and love has been granded by us...

I hope i deserve what I have and maybe one day I realize the reason of been in this earth,

live the life that you dreamed